Confession

I have a confession to make, for the past couple of days I have stopped my cleanse. I need to see if the cleanse is making me sick or if its something else. So I stopped taking it for a few days to see. And I do still feel sick so maybe isn't the cleanse which is good news! Now I just need to make myself get back on track with my cleanse, but its so hard! Its been so nice not taking those nasty things everyday. Also I have noticed that I have been more constipated. So I guess that stuff really was working. Its good stuff and it does its job, but it just tastes so gross. Now I need to start taking it again but I really don't want to. We shall see how things go the next couple days. Ill keep you posted.

The fiber has won...and i lose

I'm very sorry to say that I am going to stop taking the fiber drink. I thought it would get better with time but it's not. It makes me nauseated and sick to my stomach. Also I still gag when I take it. Its just not working out, I really hate the way it makes me feel. Cause seriously, Ill be perfectly fine all day until I take the fiber drink and then the rest of the day Ill be so sick to my stomach. I feel bad giving up on it, it feels like I lost the battle against the fiber. I hate admitting defeat! But I really can't do it anymore. Its not really worth it, and I get sick to my stomach just thinking about drinking it. I'm weak I know, but before you judge me, I request you try and take it for 30 days and see how well that goes. Never fear, I'm still going to take the hot dog pills and the nasty tea, those two things are still gross but I can handle them. I might have lost the fiber battle but I still haven't lost the war with my cleanse!

Halfway there!

Day 15 couldn't come fast enough. As you can tell that this is my halfway point! Woot woot! Lets just say that this whole experience hasn't gone like I had expected. I thought I would be pooping all the time, parasites would be pooped into the toilet and that I would be a whole new woman. Don't get me wrong, its been quite the journey and I'm glad I have done it. I just didn't know it would be this hard. I still gag everyday when I take the fiber drink, and I'm also starting to gag drinking the tea. I finally put my finger on what the pills taste like ready........ uncooked hot dogs! Now I just have to keep telling myself that its all down hill from here.... I'm almost done. I was really wondering if I would make it this far.

I'm not sure if some of these side effects are from this stuff I'm taking or other things. See I have been having these stomach pains and problems for the last 5 years and we are trying to figure out what they are. So I'm wondering if its the things I'm taking that makes me want to vomit everything I just ate, or what ya know. It really sucks because almost everything I eat makes me want to vomit after I eat it. And when I think about the food again I want to vomit. Also a lot of the time even if I haven't eaten anything I want to vomit. I think its probably just the paraway pack stuff. Cause it wasn't this bad before I started taking it. Its great though, the only things that still sound good to me are pizza and ice cream! My boyfriend has been so patient and great about my appetite lately. I'm a pretty picky eater now days and it sucks for him. Hopefully after this is all said and done my appetite will be better. I mean seriously, most days I feel like I'm a pregnant lady with all my sickness, and cravings and such. (Don't worry I'm not). Who knows maybe Ill lose a little weight because of my new appetite!

Oops

So day 13 didn't start off so well. This morning when I woke up I looked at my cute little calendar that comes with the paraway pack and realized that yesterday I was supposed to start taking 5 of the pills instead of only 2.... yesterday. Then this is when it gets good. I was on my way out the door this morning and was going to hurry and drink my fiber drink. When I got to the fridge I realized there was no more juice! And I was defiantly not going to try to drink it with water again. So I run outside to the other fridge to see if there is any more juice..... dun dun dun! No juice, but I did find some root beer and I thought "oh what the heck, I'll try it". I rushed inside, poured my root beer and scooped up the fiber mix. As soon as I put it into the cup it immediately started going all volcano on me. I was so sure it was going to spill out everywhere. I really didn't have time for all of this. I waited for it to go back down and decided to start stirring the stuff in to the root beer. And again it foamed up and threatened to foam over. Finally I just thought heck with it and decided to drink it. Man o man, I took one small sip and it was so icky! It was thick and smelled weird and I couldn't do it! Nope, no way man. I wasn't that desperate to drink my fiber. So I dumped it out and left for the day. Tonight after work I stopped at the store and got my some juice, but I wanted it to be cold so I put it in the fridge..... and forgot about it till just now and its 11:40pm. So here I am, I just drank about 10 ounces of juice and fiber which I think normally I would be able to handle over night. But I still had to drink my tea! Oh no not good. Now I know for sure I'm going to be up all night taking the wiz. So to recap my day, I forgot to start taking more pills yesterday, I tried drinking a root beer fiber float, and now I just downed a lot of liquid before bed. Good times... Btw my poop is coming alright I guess. Its been pretty runny yesterday and today, I didn't poop at all Saturday. It's so unpredictable... Nonetheless everything is alright, good as expected ya know.

More water

I have decided that I'm not BMing as much as I think that I should be. So I have come to the conclusion that I need to drink more water. Its been said that when introducing more fiber in a diet that you need more water to keep things flowing. More water it is! My new goal is to drink at least 4 bottles of water a day, I think it will help. Or maybe I just don't have that much "stuff" that needs to come out ya know. I mean, I really think I have lost some weight doing this cleanse. I have not gotten on the scale yet but I'm waiting till day 30 to see for sure. Just by my assessment I think I have shrunk a bit.... just a bit. I'm feeling good and although its really hard to keep taking all this nasty stuff everyday, I think its totally worth it. There are good days on this stuff and bad days but I have to keep reminding myself its only 30 days. I can do this, it will be better for my body in the long run.

Camera shy

I feel bad, I really wish I had some good pics to show so far. My only BM was this morning and it was a blow out let me tell you. I totally thought my reah was gone and my body was getting used to this stuff but boy was I wrong. Also I thought that my camera was dead and needed new batteries but I found it today and seems to be OK. So for now on I will carry it with me at all times! Today was like a step in the other direction from yesterday; I had one BM (as you already know) but it was runny and it was green. Also I got really sick to my stomach today. It progressively got worse as the day went on and by the time I got home from work I was so sick that I almost threw up. My tummy was aching so bad and I felt so awful I cried, it was that bad. I'm wondering if its the cleanse stuff or something else that is making me so sick. But never fear I will continue on the journey (as long as it is safe).
I will really try and get some pics to post up tomorrow. I have been getting requests by my faithful viewers for some pics. So be prepared because if they are anything like today you are in for a treat. Thanks you guys! Your the only reason I'm doing this blog, cause without you guys this would just be like my online journal. Haha!

Plugged up but free flowin

Seriously what is up with my bowels? Today I was pretty plugged up, I only BM'd once and it was a good solid one and not green. I was pretty excited about that but like I said it only happened once today. On the other hand I have been taking the whiz constantly! I did read that this cleansing is good for your bladder, urine and stuff, so its been working really well in that department. Man-o-Man I feel really sick today, I get really bad stomach aches. It feels like I got to reah but then nothing comes out but maybe a little gas and some urine. Its kind of frustrating ya know, because this stuff is supposed to make me poop a lot and its kind of going in the opposite direction. I'm kind of diggin my nightly routine though; get ready for bed brew my tea, getting my blog on, drink tea and then fall fast asleep. Its quite relaxing. I thought things were starting to look up because my bloatednees is gone and my energy level was picking up but today must have just been an off day. I was plugged up, sick, really really tired, and just feeling kind of blah. Also I didn't have much of an appetite today either, food is just not the friend it once was to me. We still get together once in a while but its just not the same love relationship we used to have. I hope it understands that I'm going through a tough time right now and I just cant be around it as much. Well anywho I better get to my nightly tea. Goodnight